Due to the endless outings with people, endless spending of money. Im officially broke for the rest of the month. And surprise surprise. It isnt midmonth yet. Too proud to ask parents for more money.

Julian told me this today. "Maybe you should start searching for a new BBFF." I was smiling still, but my heart twisted so badly I could cry. It hurt so much I couldnt breathe. I have friends, good friends, close friends. But I cannot make comparisons. I dont need substitutes, replacement, replicas. The Mother said, "Do not give all your heart, retain some part of it. Cause if you lose something you love so badly, you will hurt so much till you die." It doesnt sound right, but reality is as such. Sometimes, mothers know best.